29 Week Weight Loss Update

Life has been pretty hectic lately. Obviously too hectic for me to slap on a wig and some makeup apparently...as you can see in the video. 

Things are good. Better than good. I have moved out of the landlord from hells apartment after spending a few weeks with a hole in the bathroom ceiling. 

Not cool! 

I've seen a few good shows, hung out with friends, and participated in a storytelling event. I've also met a man who makes me smile so much my face hurts.

JC Brooks & the Uptown Sound

Policá

DJDS

Frans I

Frans II

The struggle for me now is finding out, along with the help of my therapist, why I seem to believe that weight loss journey and my journey to happiness in friendships and romantic relations are mutually exclusive. 

For the first four months post op, I was a MACHINE! I was so focused on my health that I hardly had time for anyone else. Now, I need to learn to find a balance between actively focusing on my health and on my social life.  

The only conclusion I can gather is that I have learned through life experiences, to be excessively independent. I have a pattern of thinking no one can help or support me in any capacity more than I can help and support myself. I'm beginning to realize that that thinking leads me to either intense self focus or concentrating fully on others. 

I need to be more mindful of balance. Even the flyest flyboy can't always fly alone. 

One year ago vs this week...not naked!