Back On My Bullshit
This weekend, my friend told me that I was back on my bullshit when I decided to get cute and wear a wig for a night out. While I laughed as I thought about the previously primped version of myself, I couldn’t help but think about those times when I made my body that much of a priority. I worked out rigorously. I meal prepped thoughtfully. I was organized enough to have a weekly routine of gym time, meal prep, and my actual career. And I curated my outfits meticulously. I felt great. I still focus a good amount of time on my appearance through my clothing and makeup, but the healthfulness part of my self care has dissipated…like completely.
1000% on my bullshit
Let’s take a look at the last year and a half, shall we?
Since I last updated this blog, I have stopped working out. I eat pretty much whatever I want. I drink…too much. I visited most of the capital cities in Scandinavia, as well as, Croatia, Spain again, more of Mexico, and Portugal. And all that was amazing, but I’d be lying if I said I don’t look at pictures from 2016 and miss the hell out of that motivated gym rat.
A few other things have happened: Adam and I moved in together in July, we adopted a little bebe kitty named Graycie, and as of December 10, 2019, we’re engaged!
Minutes after getting engaged in Hawaii!
With that very special wedding day looming in the not so distant future, I’ve decided to get back on my bullshit. I’ve also decided that this time around, being very much in love, very comfortable, and often very hungry, I’m going to need a little assistance. This morning, I got a email code for 80% off of an annual subscription for Noom. I figured what the hell. I’m not going to lie…Noom is not cheap. Even with the 80% off. But, if I spend $125 on eye shadow palettes (Pat McGrath stays taking my money), I can invest in my health. If you’re trying to get your shit together too, you can use that Noom link for 20% off of sign up. I have only just started, but I like the focus on coaching and on the psychology of overcoming healthy eating and lifestyle struggles. I’ll keep y’all posted on how I feel about it since I opted for the 1-year membership.
Screenshot from Noom…we’ll see about this believing!
For those who met me prior to 2015 or in the last year, you probably only know me as a fun-loving chubbster. But, those who got to see my transformation from 2015-early 2017, probably got to know the best version of me. I was happy, confident, outgoing, but mostly…I was healthy!
Oct 2016 Me vs December 2019 Me
While it is extremely difficult to publicly grapple with the weight (pun intended) of being a bariatric surgery “failure”, I feel that I can credit much of my success in losing 130 lbs to being held accountable by family and friends through social media and blogging. So, while I’m not sure if I will make YouTube videos again, writing is cathartic for me. I’ll try to regularly update here and my weight loss Instagram with health and fitness, lifestyle (still living it up in Chicago/traveling as much as possible), and wedding (sorry, not sorry) content.
So with that, I’m back on my bullshit and back to laughing my ass off…2020 edition!
