Love & WLS - A Balancing Act
It's been forever since I posted a blog about actual weight loss surgery stuff and I apologize for that. The last several months of my life have been a flurry of events and resumes. I GOT A NEW JORB!
And...in the last few months, I've been hopelessly falling for this ridiculously handsome turd-face and his floof nugget kitten, Larry (awwwwww).
During the last few weeks, I've started to look at what is working for me and what is working against me. In an effort to get back on track, I want to look at what's working in my favor and what isn't in hopes of getting more focused on my WLS journey again.
What does not work:
1. I eat and drink a lot when I am happy.
Food is delicious. Drinks are fun. For nearly 8 months, I've been dating someone who likes food and drinks as much as, if not more, than I do. I feel that throughout my life, food has been a constant in happy (and sad, and lonely, and depressed, insert infinite emotions here) moments. So, when I found someone I genuinely enjoy spending time with and sharing a fondness for trying new restaurants and new beers, things just kind of naturally progressed with that becoming commonplace. I really don't want that to change, but I've got to pick out some healthier options... sometimes.
I don't even care if this is fat. I love this picture!
2. I am tired.
Mainly due to the eating and drinking, I feel really tired lately. Granted I've been going full steam for months, making the most of this summer as Chicagoans tend to do because Chicago winters be like dis.
Even still, I remember having a lot more energy last summer when I wasn't eating quite so much.
3. I've gained weight.
There it is, the one thing people that have had WLS are not supposed to admit. Also, the one thing, I've never mentioned on this blog. My weight has fluctuated before, but I once got down to 218. I've been holding steady around 235 for the last several months. I'm not happy about this AT ALL. My goal weight set by my GP is 190. My goal weight that my surgeon suggested is 200. I've never gotten there. And according to my general practitioner, the weight I'm going to lose from WLS is over! It's all on me now. I. AM. TERRIFIED about this. I can eat nearly as much in a sitting as I used to be able to. Nothing seems to trigger my stopping point/vomit button like it used to. And to be honest, I miss that feeling.
What works:
1. I am motivated to work out when I have a buddy.
Since we've been dating, he started running. Seeing him finish the first 5K he's participated in, and running it with him, was so exciting! Going to the gym together was inspiration for me to keep going on my weight loss journey...I just need to make those trips to the gym more frequently! It's really easy to get caught up in the feeling that comes from someone you think is a babe finding you equally as babely. But, we can totally just be even bablier babes together!
Check out those WLS + sports bra negative boobs!
2. Sex.
Sex is awesome. Sex is particularly awesome when it is with someone you can communicate with and who makes you feel comfortable in your own saggy, WLS-wrinkled, droopy skin. By refocusing on my WLS routines, I feel like I can gain back a little of the confidence that has been waning in the last few months.
3. I want to do everything.
When I am enamored with someone, I want to spend time doing all of the things with them! Focusing on my WLS journey, healthy eating, and exercise gives me the energy that I need to go to shows, and festivals, and road trips. I've felt lethargic and tired lately, and need to get back some energy to keep having a blast! I want to see the world with the person I'm currently dating because he makes everything fun! I need to take care of myself so that I can be the best person I can be for me most importantly, but secondly to keep enjoying life with him.
I know there is outstanding amounts of evidence of divorce after one partner has WLS. But, I've seen or heard very little about people who met after one person had WLS. So, this is very new to me. As someone who has had unhealthy relationships with both food and partners, I think it's imperative to monitor these relationships now that I'm a healthier, happier person. I've come way too far to go back to 356 lbs or to let someone else take focus in my life. So, like Auntie Maxine, I'm RECLAIMING MY TIME!
Photo by Paz Arando on Unsplash
