36 Weeks Exhausted Queer Ramble

This week I've had a few things on my mind. I've been physically exhausting myself trying to save money for my Europe trip.  

Between my Monday through Friday 9-6 job, the gigs I've been working on weekends, trying to design shirts to start selling online for more money, TRYING to get the gym regularly, and attempting to maintain my social calendar during Pride month...I'm. So. Tired.

But as I discussed with my therapist, I am someone with a proverbial "death fear". If I'm not living as much life as I can while I'm here, why am I here?!?  What is the point of passively living?

Then events like Orlando happen. I go into hyperdrive. Must live as much as possible! It's tiring, but I really just want to collect amazing stories. When my time is done, and that warm sensation of acceptance comes over me, I'm not going to be thinking back on all the good Netflix I watched, you know? I'm not going to be reliving someone else's story at the end of my own. So...exhaustion is my norm. 

But I've been having a blast!

I've started my Threadless artist shop, Britches Ain't Shirts to sell shirts. So hopefully that will pick up some funds.  I hope everyone gets the reference because it's hilarious to me.

I've been Color Run...ning. 

I've been story telling 

I've been straight up KICKIN' IT with my friends for Pride month! 

If there's anything to gain out of the tragedies becoming more and more common, let it be to keep living and loving as hard as you possibly can! This song has been getting me through because I know "we'll just carry on, doing what we do"!